Conflict Within

I am at loggerheads,
No one except myself.
I want to score points,
No one but me.

I want to cut to size,
No one but me.
I want to settle scores,
No one but me.

Eternal war
With self.
Want to annihilate self—
Is it awakening or am I falling into slumber,
Never to wake up?

Where do I look for answers and solutions?
Light is too much, blinding.

Sure paths do exist,
Nothing over yet.
Hold yourself together without blown into splinters.

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