The Turmoil Within




When I behave like a beast, what is this that enters me?
Suddenly, there's nothing inside as bad as this.
So, what is this external thing that comes and mars my pristine nature?

Still, I hold the strings, yet influences seep in.
Some I cannot help, like anger's fiery spin.
Reason falters, pain overwhelms, and emotions sway,
Jealousy, lust, and eagerness – illusions that beckon each day.

I don't want to circumvent these influences, but face them head-on.
For in this turmoil, I search for balance and peace,
A fragile dance between heart, mind, and soul's release.

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